Alright guys, just in time for the holidays, I managed to land myself in the hospital over the past few days! The stay was related to a disease completely unrelated to Ana getting out of control again and me having a seizure in the middle of a super market. (. There are two downsides to being in the hospital: steroids, and no dieting. This combination means I am back up to 179.8 thismorning, and I am restarting ABC. No judgement! It just makes sense, since I was interrupted last time.
Today is Day 1 (take 2) of Ana Boot Camp!
Weight: 179.8
BMI: 30.86 (OBESE= Higher than 30)
500 calories today. So far, it is 2 o' clock, and I haven't even felt hungry, so I'm saving them for later. :]
I went grocery shopping today! I got all my essentials for the diet. My Ana survival kit-- all for just under $15! I like a variety of texture, so even though fruit and veggie bags are fantastic, these will help break up the monotony.
Nature Valley Granola Thins- 80 calories/ pack. These are so delicious!!
Diet Mountain Dew- 0 calories
Plain Cheerios- 100 calories/ cup
Pretzel sticks- 60 calories/ 12 pretzels
Green Tea Extract
In addition to the diet, I am going to continue doing my P90X workout, but since I am starting Boot Camp, I figured I might as well start on Day 1 of the P90X program as well. Day 1 is Chest and Back and Ab Ripper X. The average calories burnt per day on P90X is 700 calories, but there's not really a way to know for sure. I will say that even when not dieting, every time I do P90X I lose about 1.5-2.5 pounds, so it is very effective!!
Hopefully all of these things kick in soon. My stretch marks are getting really itchy lately. I hope it's because they're starting to go away. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my giant hips and back fat and seeing the giant stretch marks that go right along with them. I remember when i first started getting them, someone actually asked me what the scratches on my side were from.. and that was when they were first getting started. Now it looks like I got attacked by a tiger or something and got slashed down my sides by their claws. At this point, I would welcome that. Maybe some of the fat would fall out in the process. I miss being able to undress in front of my man and feel confident about what I'm showing him. Now I just pull my clothes off as fast as possible and get under a blanket or pull him on top of me to cover me up, because I don't want him to see me like this. This is not me. I hate being big.
Ana will make me better. With her, I am small, disciplined, I know I always have someone to support me, I can wear cute clothes, I can start hanging out with my friends again who I've been to embarrased to see, I will have my focus and clarity back. I WILL BE BETTER. I am stronger in Ana.
Thanks for reading!
Stay inspired,
Stay light.
Stronger In <3 Ana <3
Today is Day 1 (take 2) of Ana Boot Camp!
Weight: 179.8
BMI: 30.86 (OBESE= Higher than 30)
500 calories today. So far, it is 2 o' clock, and I haven't even felt hungry, so I'm saving them for later. :]
I went grocery shopping today! I got all my essentials for the diet. My Ana survival kit-- all for just under $15! I like a variety of texture, so even though fruit and veggie bags are fantastic, these will help break up the monotony.
Nature Valley Granola Thins- 80 calories/ pack. These are so delicious!!
Diet Mountain Dew- 0 calories
Plain Cheerios- 100 calories/ cup
Pretzel sticks- 60 calories/ 12 pretzels
Green Tea Extract
In addition to the diet, I am going to continue doing my P90X workout, but since I am starting Boot Camp, I figured I might as well start on Day 1 of the P90X program as well. Day 1 is Chest and Back and Ab Ripper X. The average calories burnt per day on P90X is 700 calories, but there's not really a way to know for sure. I will say that even when not dieting, every time I do P90X I lose about 1.5-2.5 pounds, so it is very effective!!
Hopefully all of these things kick in soon. My stretch marks are getting really itchy lately. I hope it's because they're starting to go away. I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my giant hips and back fat and seeing the giant stretch marks that go right along with them. I remember when i first started getting them, someone actually asked me what the scratches on my side were from.. and that was when they were first getting started. Now it looks like I got attacked by a tiger or something and got slashed down my sides by their claws. At this point, I would welcome that. Maybe some of the fat would fall out in the process. I miss being able to undress in front of my man and feel confident about what I'm showing him. Now I just pull my clothes off as fast as possible and get under a blanket or pull him on top of me to cover me up, because I don't want him to see me like this. This is not me. I hate being big.
Ana will make me better. With her, I am small, disciplined, I know I always have someone to support me, I can wear cute clothes, I can start hanging out with my friends again who I've been to embarrased to see, I will have my focus and clarity back. I WILL BE BETTER. I am stronger in Ana.
Thanks for reading!
Stay inspired,
Stay light.
Stronger In <3 Ana <3